There are times in life when we feel lonely even though we are surrounded with people
There are times in life when we feel that all people don't understand us.
(That's normal because we can't even understand people very well and sometimes we can't even understand ourselves)
There are times in life when we really want people to listen to us but no one ever care to listen that we decided to remain silent
There are times in our life when we give up on people because we think we have tried so hard but nothing happens
There are times in life when we cannot be positive because we receive negativity
There are times in life when we feel like going somewhere far and meet new people so that we can start new life
There are times in our life when we don't even know ourselves and we feel bad about it
But dear self,
Please always remind yourself that
There is always hope
Escapism does not even solve anything
Killing people with your silence is an act that actually kills yourself
Being stress is not a better choice either
That adds the problem
Because stress makes you sick
You don't have appetite to eat
You don't think there's a need to talk to people
You became so down that all negative assumptions and thoughts came into your mind
You hurt people because you are hurt
You are not being yourself
Finally,
You are actually killing yourself with all the negative assumptions and thoughts
You are actually finding people to blame but not yourself
And you are actually ruining yourself
Until
You realize that hope is always there
Always
It's just you who refuse to see it
So
My hope for 2016 is that there is always hope in everything and I'm not giving up on anything
"...Indeed, no one despairs of relief from Allah except the disbelieving people." (12:87)
So hye
I'm back
Still fixing my heart but it's healing
Slowly but surely
I hope that all people including me will always remember that there's always hope
Always