Engagement Day 💍

Alhamdulillah, I'm engaged 💍

I would love to write about my engagement day ❤️

First and foremost, fiance and fiancee come from an Old French words meaning "promise"✋ which ultimately come from a Latin word "fidere" meaning "to trust" 😇

I would say, engagement is a trust we put on our future spouse to not break this promise 😊🌹

(Candid photo could be the best photo, isn't it?)

To be honest, a decision to get engaged isn't easy for me 🤦. This is a huge decision. Those who know me would say "FINALLY!"  But insha Allah I made this decision consciously and firmly 🌸

A month before we got engaged, I asked him once again if he is sure about this and he said he's sure. Alhamdulillah, both are sure with each other. I mean, we all deserve someone who is sure about us right? ☺️

(People ask me if I was nervous on the day. I didn't really because I already felt nervous a month before hahaha)

I never know what future holds for us but we will always try to remember this:

"Aku tidak tahu apa yang Allah takdirkan untukku tapi aku bersangka baik dengan Allah"

"Taqdir Allah itu baik-baik belaka"

-nuurolsyakirah

My fiance once reminded us:

"Urusan jodoh ini sukar untuk manusia tapi sangat mudah untuk Allah."

13/7/2019 is the date we are engaged to each other. A step closer to make this relationship halal. We pray that Allah will put barokah in this journey insha Allah.✨

My intention of letting people know that I'm engaged is so that:

1) People will pray for this journey to be smooth until we finally tie the knot 🤵👰 and start the taaruf process all over again as a husband and wife. Really in need of your kind prayers 🌸

Beloved ibu and ayah 🥰

2) People will guide me throughout this process, give me tips and calm me down when I get overwhelmed 🤯

3) People will remind me to always be mindful (have taqwa) , to keep it moderate (not too lenient, not too rigid) and to always take care of myself ☘️

People say that this process would be challenging but this is the challenge that I'm willing to take🔥

Willing to take on the challenges?

Do pray for us. May all your kind prayers will go back to you in a better way 😊

P/s: some people might think that I shouldn't be too hype about this as this isn't 100% sure. But, I guess it's good to enjoy the present moment and to take note about the journey. We pray for the best and for the goodness. I should be reminded of how grateful I am to get engaged with this man and to know his family 🌸

Therefore, when there might be unpleasant things happen in between (Allah will definitely test us), I would always be reminded, I never regret taking this decision. Remember what Gottman (relationship psychologist) said : for every 1 negative interaction during conflict, a happy couple should have 5 (or more) positive interactions.

Moga kekal dalam ketaatan kerana fitrah cinta itu suci dan tak dicemari dengan derhaka kepada Ilahi✨

Alright, that's the end of the post for my engagement day. Insha Allah I'll write again about the journey when we both finally making a sacred contract (mitsaqan ghalizo) 🌸 Pray for us and may the angels will pray for you too 🌹

Ramadhan Diary : Missing Good Old Days

Assalamualaikum. 

It has been so long since I wrote here. So hi! Ramadhan Mubarak. 

I don't know if I'll be consistent to write anything here in Ramadhan but since today is the first day of Ramadhan, 

I guess I should write something (sementara masih ada semangat huks 😶)

Right. Last night I went to Masjid nearby my house to perform tarawih. 

Don't you think time flies so fast? Ramadhan this year is quite a surprise. I mean we were all expecting it but for me...I didn't do much preparation even though I got something in my mind on what I want to achieve this Ramadhan. 

I read my friend's status saying that she feels a bit lonely this Ramadhan because she celebrated it alone (she just started working this year). I can relate very well. That's what I feel too. Semalam rasa lonely sebab pergi terawih sorang-sorang  I just got back from shopping Kurma and stuffs then terus pergi masjid. My roommates went to Masjid together hee. 

Anyway ya...It felt different yesterday because since so many years I was celebrating Ramadhan either with my family or friends. Okay I admit that yesterday I really felt like crying. I did shed my tears (sikit je la nangis tu. Takdalah nangis sangat) 

It just that my heart feels something that I couldn't describe. The feeling of longing to the good old days. I miss everyone literally. But reflecting to those old good days, I'm so so much grateful that I experienced it before. I feel so blessed. May Allah keeps sending me good people whom I will cherish and makes my life worth living 💓

Apart from that, maybe I'm not prepared enough but I do looking forward to experience this journey. Ramadhan journey. I'm expecting that I'd learn something. I don't know what Allah wants to teach me this Ramadhan.

That's just my diary for the first night of Ramadhan. I hope I'm motivated enough to keep on sharing here. 

Bye. Ramadhan Mubarak again. 

Thanks for reading 

Sum-up Ramadhan: A month of Love

Assalamualaikum,

Alhamdulillah, we have been celebrating Eid this past few days. I just want to throwback on what happened during Ramadhan this year :)

This year's Ramadhan is a bit different from the past years. It was not the best for me, but it's unique and different.

This Ramadhan, I spent most of the days with the children in Haneen Firdous. It was a really wonderful experience. Some of the things I'm grateful for:

1) Opportunity to teach the children
- Alhamdulillah for this great opportunity to spend time with these adorable girls. We spend time sahur, iftar, terawih, recite Quran together

Making pizza for iftar. Thanks volunteers!

Iftar at Masjid Shah Alam

Foodies for iftar!

Shopping Raya

2) Meeting awesome people
- During this Ramadhan, I met so many awesome people whose heart is a gold!
They sincerely want to make these girls happy, sponsoring iftar, becoming imam terawih, telling stories to the children, gave free counseling session. May Allah bless each and everyone of them! Amiin

Imam Terawih: Ustaz Abu

Imam Terawih: Akh Faris

The children started to learn the stories of Quran :)

Duit raya from ustaz!

Jumpa orang baru yang awesome!

3) Opportunity to visit other welfare houses
- This Ramadhan, I got the opportunity to visit two welfare houses. The children were very happy to get to know four girls from other welfare home and they seem so excited to invite them coming to Haneen Firdous later

4) Listening to a friend's and trying to help out
- I'm still working on this. I listened to her story regarding her abusive relationship and she wanted to fight for her rights. Insha Allah still in progress to help her. Doakan ya!

5) Seeing small little achievement
- One of the best blessings is seeing the progression of the kids. I could see them progressing to be better. The journey is still a long way to go but I hope we can work together to instill hope in them and make them one of the agent of change in their family and society

6) Getting lots of supports from lovely people
- This Ramadhan, I got a lot of supports from people emotionally and psychologically to continue doing what am I doing. This is something that I'm so grateful for.

There are days that I'm so overwhelmed and anxious about my own expectations on myself.

But, with these people around me to support, I'm alright. Alhamdulillah

7) Got opportunity to share my experience fasting in Australia at TV Al-Hijrah
- This is really unexpected. It as unplanned. I was called by a friend a day before and I needed to decide on that day. huhu. I wasn't really prepared hahah. That's why if you watch it, there're some questions that I didn't really answer it properly. Whatever it is, it was a great experience!
Thanks to a friend who drives me there! :)

After all, Selamat Hari Raya people!
May Allah accepts our deeds and make us among the righteous

Wishing you Selamat Hari Raya! 🌸🌹

Me and my family 😻